.delinquent.

2010-12-19T18:52:00.002+08:00

In two day's time, it's Mom's Birthday and I AM SUPER DUPER BROKE NOW!! :(

... Part of my money went to facials, driving lessons, driving test, transportation and seriously, I don't know where the rest of my money went to. I KNOW, I CAN'T MANAGE MONEY even though I can manage people much more better... ~~disappointing~~.

Everyweek, my colleagues ask me where do I go on weekends. I would always say the same thing.. ' I hate weekends cos' it's super crowded and I don't know what to eat... I feel lazy as well.' -no life-

I want to buy a lot of things. I want a pair of polarized sunglasses. I want a new swimsuit. I need a casual bag. I want a swatch watch (even though I don't like to wear watches in the past). I need a pair of sports shoe. I need a lot of sunblock lotion (haha!).

Apart from all those mentioned, I wish... my boss will be able to give me a vehicle as soon as possible... and this is my Christmas wish. HAHAHA!!!

2010-12-11T12:02:00.001+08:00

I passed my driving the second time. I got 58 points deducted the first time I failed. Hahaha! I was very nervous and I hit curb thrice. Dumb.. I know. Someone used to tell me, 'I don't know how would anyone hit the curb. It's not easy to hit the curb'.. And.. I said 'ya, stupid or what'. LOL. Then, I'm the stupid one.

In fact, I felt weird that morning.. I knew I was going to fail. I failed and was sad. I told myself, I'm not going to fail the next time. I am so determined to pass.

One week before the second TP test, I went for 3 sessions of revision... My TP tester was fierce. He scolded me.. but he was lenient.

When I passed, I wasn't elated. In fact, I was just glad that I need not spend so much for driving. I've spent 1.6k on driving in total.. Including enrollment fee for joining the school, drop out from school and enrollment for private school.

I know I should feel really happy. I didn't. Perhaps I had never really fail in anything I do. I get what I want. I do what I want. And after I passed, I knew I deserve it.

Having insomnia, I laid in bed a few hours thinking... If.. I'm someone else, I would think that Daphne is a scary person. Someone not easily satisfied. Someone who knows what she wants and she gets it.

And I know myself well enough. I can be really stubborn. and I began to be afraid of this Daphne... :(

2010-11-16T21:10:00.002+08:00

I'm physically and mentally exhausted. Physically cos' I've been running around in parks to do up a plan view of each section in detail... and mentally cos' the Nparks meeting scared the hell out of me. I'm glad that West Coast Park is doing fine.. and it all started after I came in. hahahahax!!

I think I'm just too busy at work that I sometimes get brain dead- I can't even remember my worker's name when I just mentioned his name over and over again in the morning. =.= I can't remember that I was told that the meeting was postpone. When I recalled, I thought it was last night's dream. ( But it wasn't a dream!!.)

Nowadays I work at 7am and end at 4pm plus. If I start at 9am, I go home at 5pm. Workers are trying to snake.. I can't do anything much but to go super early to make sure they start on time. I don't mind. In fact, time passes much faster. :)

2010-10-31T09:56:00.002+08:00

I'm blogging now cos' I think I' too too bored. I've gotten used to working life- I sleep early and wake up early.. and I wake up exactly after 9 hours. :)

Even so, I'm still feeling tired. I cycle everyday except Sundays and my thighs are aching since 1st day at work. hahahax!

My parents went for a short holiday, leaving Devin and I at home. I feel very very bored on a Sunday when I want to go out but dunno where to go and my legs are aching that makes me feel like resting. *sadd* Its my job now to cook my own meal- its okay, I don't eat a lot.. Had to feed Devin, clean his litter, wash my own clothes, hang up my own clothes, sweep the floor, pack my room... I watch TV alone, no one to listen to me whine... I feel lonely. :(

I've got a meeting with Nparks tomorrow and I dread cos' they can only see the bad things and they never.. never mention anything good. We don't feel appreciated. :(

I've been working with Nparks and I always feel that their handshake are sooo.... soft. I didn't put in that much strength but I still can feel/hear a 'crack' sound on that little finger. *sigh*

I want to study Part-time. and Im still looking up on what to study.

Working outdoor makes my face look horrible. I'm going for facial.. in preparation for Chinese New Year :(

I bought ready-to-plant wheat grass for Devin and the media stinks!! Smells like zebra's shit and it makes me feel like I'm in Zoo. :(

2010-10-28T20:32:00.002+08:00

I was slacking for 3.5 months and I can say that I seriously wasn't interested in looking for jobs at all. and right now, I'm back to working life. No office hours and although I don't have a office over at West Coast right now, I really love the job. Its tiring but time passes really fast. Sometimes I start work at 9 plus and I go home around 4pm plus 5pm, provided I've got nothing else to do. :)

I'm paid to manage, coordinate with Nparks and exercise- cycle around the park and walk if I want to. How good is that? I always wanted to get paid to exercise. :) Once my office is up, I can run in the morning!! :)

A lot happened in this 6 weeks from the last time I blogged.
I worked.
My 21st Birthday was fabulous.
My birthday present from my parents was an iphone.
My birthday present from friends was an Agnes B ear stud and a crystal keychain. :)
I went for Holiday at Redang.
My camera spoilt at Redang and I got a newer set of camera by Olympus.
I failed my driving test- I got 58 demerit points (believe or not? LOL!)
Devin was sick.
I started working.
and my parents were really supportive.
Baybe as well..he cooked lunch for me and bring over to West Coast.
I mopped the floor for the first time in dunno-how-many- hundred-months.
Weekends are always... feeling down and lazy.
I finally got used to my heavier-than-usual boots.
I think my make up foundation can rot at home cos' I don't use it when I go to work.
Thinking of buying new year clothes,
thinking of shopping during weekend makes me feel so so sick. :(
My 'enough rest' means 9 hours of sleep.
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Some people can't open up to themselves, how could they even open up to others?
If you can betray the one you love, you can do the same to others as well.
I don't need a best friend cos' not everyone can be trusted and some, just make you as an object to compare with.
Some people whom you think are friends when they think you're trash.
I really need to cool down cos' I've finally realized that my working pace is really too fast.
Resolving misunderstandings are... difficult.

2010-09-17T11:41:00.002+08:00

I'd been eating mooncakes and I love it!!

Raffles Hotel
GoodWood Park Hotel
Tong Le
Carlton Hotel
Ritz Carlton Hotel
Classic Teochew baked mooncake

...and more to come!!

I think I ate to much mooncakes, my stomach isn't feeling well. Or I should say, ever since I started working in April, my stomach is always bloated... Nah, I think I've gotten used to it. :( Medications like ENO doesn't work for me already.

I'm not feeling well now and Devin follows me around in the house as though he wants to take care of me. I'm blogging and he's lying on my table to accompany me. So sweet right? I tried to have more rest but I can't seem to fall asleep. Irritating. :( Hopefully I feel better later cos' I want to go out!!!

blackberry phone? iphone? same price :(

2010-09-12T00:55:00.002+08:00

Yes,

My cravings for mooncakes are legendary :)

since more than 6 months ago

I cleared Raffles Hotel mooncakes. Next, would be Shangri-la Hotel mooncakes. Then, Teochew yam mooncakes. :) I only eat small snowskin mooncakes that cost more than $45 for 8 pieces. Those cheapo ones really make me fat and waste my stomach storage space. :x hahahax!!

I want lanterns. I'm very delighted to know that mid-autumn festival is round the corner. :) Honestly, I like mid-autumn festival more than Chinese New Year. I dread Chinese New Year as I grow older. So sick of it. :(

2010-09-06T00:07:00.003+08:00

I'M BACK TO BLOG!!! :)

My driving test is about a month from now. I am supposed to have lesson today and Wednesday but I called to cancel them. Why? Cos' I don't feel like driving. Everytime I go for lesson, my instructor would scold me- say I'm slow, no common sense, etc... After each lesson, I feel like a complete idiot. Its so damn demoralizing and it makes me feel that I pay him to scold me. Sometimes, he would make use of the time to ask me to send him to run some errands like driving him to woodlands to change his air-con battery, pump petrol, send out invitations for his son's wedding, buy incense papers and offerings for the ghost festival... I wonder if I pay him to do all these. !@#$%^&

For the past few days, I had been working in the IT show. The pay is low but what matters most is that we are able to kill time and make more friends. And yes, we did. My very first customer was a boss and he bought 7 computers straight. I'm just too lucky!!! Day one, I sold 10 products. My luck ran out or what, I sold only 1 on the second day. Bloody china girl snatched 3 of my customers. Its okay. It proves that she is better than me. Third day, I sold 5. The last sales was at 6.30pm and I started to slack since then. 5 is more than enough. LOL!! I didn't work on the fourth day because I've always dislike working in IT shows and I decided not to go. :x

The food for IT show was... yucks!!! Seriously. We are given only one meal and the food was like... OMG! I can cook even nicer. The pay and commission is low... that's why we work harder than other promoters from other companies. Then, it's so demoralizing to see them eat good food like fried rice or bento set. :( Nah. I just tell myself, its an experience.

I bought food for Baybe today. My very first time making sushi. The very first time I learn how to cook rice. LOL!!! I'm glad he likes it.

I left city hall at about 11.30pm and reached home at 2am the day before. Due to the upgrading of MRT track between Jurong East and Clementi, it took me 2.5 hours to reach home. I tried to to be patient... I was late for work as well. I boarded the train at Pioneer and it terminates at Lakeside. Then I have to wait for about 6 minutes for the next train that goes to Jurong East cos' only one track is operating. Then from Jurong East, there are shuttle bus to bring us to Clementi. Then, I have to walk to MRT station to continue my journey. Freaking time consuming!!! At night, because of this changing of bus and train, I reached Pioneer at 1am plus. I had to walk all the way home... ... ... I think SMRT should pay me for all the time wasted.

I had cravings for a lot of things recently. I want to eat Nasi Lemak, MacDonalds' spicy chicken nuggets, Lei Cha, Lor Mee, Mooncakes, Spicy Buffalo Wings, Apple Strudel, etc... Then, I want to learn to cook Aglio Olio someday. I want to make oreo cheesecake again. I want to go to Zoo again. I want to go to ikea again. I want to go to a lot of places. And, I can't wait to go to Redang to snorkel. :)

I opened my wardrobe and I realised that my Hua Hng long sleeve shirt is still hanging there... for more than half a year already. I thought it's supposed to be on the floor? Just then, I realised people in HH have Facebook as well!!! I wonder why they have facebook for... 2 possibilities. One is to stalk Ken Ng and see what is he so unhappy about the food there. Second, is to stalk their Big Missy to see what is she doing during work... I suppose :x

I have a great pet- Devin. In fact, he's quite bad tempered. He hates guy and he hates people to carry him around (unlike other cats)... He likes it when I clean his face with a wet toothbrush and whenever I bath a little longer, he would ask me to open the washroom door to look at me. I never understood what he tried to say but he looks so cute when he purrs at me. He seems to know it when I'm about to reach home. Whenever he greets me at the door, my mood brightens. He looked older, that's of course. He'd been here for 5 years already.. and I hope he can be like that forever... :(

smile

2010-07-22T11:17:00.002+08:00

I am just very pissed with someone and I know this is the maximum I can tolerate. It's been a long time and I always tell myself to forgive her. I always keep it to myself because I know everything will be fine in the end. Many times, it just lead to disappointment, seriously.

Most of the time, I will be the one planning the venue and time to meet and there's this many many times where I get disappointed but I just kept quiet. On rare occasions when I ask for suggestions, some would give and I just go along. In the end, that someone would back out last minute i.e. 'I not sure lei.. Not very accessible...' sounds familiar? and all the time, it takes her zillion years to reply messages or she don't reply at all.

Everytime I try to plan something, a part of me would regret... a part of me would say ' you're just wasting your time doing all these..' Seriously, I don't feel appreciated. It's hard to meet up when everyone is so busy and when FINALLY... everyone is free, someone would just back out. her boyfriend, her dog, her family.... What about us? In her eyes, are we nothing?

Why Don had to leave? I think you're responsible for this question too. I won't say too much on this though cos' it doesn't really concern me. I don't know how much you've said behind my back but do you know that colleagues can never be friends? How did Kevin know so much about me when i didn't even tell him a single shit about my personal life?

Sometimes when you lie, be careful.. because when people starts to talk about it, everything's exposed. I don't know if it's true, some other says that you're a hypocrite and I'm not as cunning as you. *I never knew you were but I'm glad that I'm not*

There's hell lot more but I shall stop here. I am very very disappointed.

Sadly, I have reached my limit.

2010-07-19T23:56:00.002+08:00

.Baybe.

Happy Monthiversary!!

...once again...

Thank you for being here.. It's indeed my luck to have you and to be with you. For the past 3 years, I haven't been noticing you at all, to be honest. We both were too busy with our own lives and I can seriously count the number of times you hang out with us.

Now, I get to know you even better and yes, you're a great guy. The greatest I've ever met. Now I know why you always can't answer my questions immediately.. You can't seem to hear well because of that stupid chocolate chip in your ear. =x

I know I've influenced you in many ways i.e. bath immediately when you get home, go running and eat healthy (although I eat a lot of junk food. LOL.) Influence me by helping me to keep my room neat uh. wahahax!!

I enjoyed my day today although it seemed like any other days to me. I've been really happy for the past 3 weeks. It's a special day today but everyday seemed special to me. =D

'olivia'

2010-07-18T14:06:00.002+08:00

I have my camera with me all the time.
I love to irritate my Devin.
I seldom have cash on me.
I love to exercise.
I love cereals together with no sugar Nutrisoy.
I prefer Kelloggs’ Special K than to Nestle fitnesse.
I love Magnolia yoghurt.
I love vegetables.
I love nuts.
I love soup.
I hate pork. I think I’m halal. ( I love Ba Kua). =x
The only meat I eat are fish, chicken, duck and pork. That’s all.
Actually, I don’t like to eat meat especially duck and pork.
I hate repetition.
I would want to go bag packing someday.
I would like to live in New Zealand.
I don’t mind migrating to Australia.
The distance I run depends on my mood.
I’m vain and yes, I draw my eye liners properly before I step out of me house each time. =)
I hate proper meals and I’m trying to adapt to ‘the-proper-meal-days’…
I love animals and all the time, I’m just trying to force myself to love plants…
I think I eat a lot when others say I don’t.
I go crazy when I’m tired. I will be super quiet when I’m very exhausted.
I prefer hands on work.
I like to do things that can make someone smile; cos’ I feel happier this way.
I love fury objects i.e. Devin. You can try growing more hair. I MIGHT love you. =x
I am oblivious. & sometimes when I’m not, I try to act like I am.
I'm typing all these just because I’m bored…

2010-07-18T10:47:00.004+08:00

One of the book that I have borrowed is called ‘What colour is your personality?’ by Carol Ritberger. It is interesting to know your personality colour so as to have a better understanding of yourself. After knowing what colour is your personality, it will be easier for you to find out more about your colour online. There are also online pages that helps you to indentify your colour but they only have very little questions for you to answer- which I think it’s not that accurate.

The Personality Colour Indicator (PCI)
The PCI indentifies the redominant personality traits and characteristics. It will classify those differences into 4 colour categories: red orange, yellow and green.

Instructions: Read each statement carefully. If you agree with the statement or believe that it represents your most frequent and habitual patterns, jot down the letter to its left. If you do not agree, go on to the next statement.

A 1. I consider myself down-to-earth.

A 2. I prefer to stick to a set daily routine rather than put myself in unfamiliar situations.

B 3. I enjoy using my creativity to come up with innovative ways of doing rather than doing the way other do.

A 4. I stay focused and concentrated on what needs to be completed now rather than thinking about future tasks.

B 5. I become bore with tasks that are repetitious and find myself looking for different and better methods of doing them.

B 6. I enjoy the challenge of finding solutions to problems that are complex and that need to be explored from a variety of perspectives.

A 7. I consider myself to be practical, not theoretical.

B 8. I have a lot of thoughts in mind and I am often accussed of not listening or being pre-occupied.

A 9. I would rather work with facts and figures rather than theories and ideas.

B 10. I pride myself on using my intellect and being a creative problem solver.

A 11. I would rather deal with the known than explore possibilities.

B 12. I prefer being original rather than traditional.

B 13. I am interested in how machines and products work so I can come up with ways to improve them.

B 14. I prefer learning new skills than using old ones.

A 15. I am detail oriented.

A 16.I find myself attracted to people who are similar to me: realistic, practical and involved with current issues.

A 17. I become impatient and frustrated with problem or tasks that are too complicated.

B 18. I prefer to read books that provoke thought and allow the mind to wander and explore a variety of scenarios.

A 19. I would rather follow a standard operating procedure than create new ways of doing things.

A 20. I want work tasks and time expectations clearly defined before I begin a project.

B 21. I am usually on a different wavelength from most people.

B 22. I tend to answer questions with a question in order to gather more information.

A 23. I interpret things literally rather than conceptually.

A 24. I am more interested in the production and distribution of products than in their design and application.

B 25. I thrive in variety and dislike repetition.

B 26. I am a risk taker and shun the conservative approach of life.

A 27. I look for tried and proven ways to solve problems tan to rely on past experiences, rather than wasting my time seeking new and unproven solutions.

B 28. I enjoying listening to new ideas and exploring their potential rather than dealing with the mundane.

B 29. I would rather create with my mind than produce with my hands.

A 30. When confronted with problems, I react quickly rather than dwelling with it before doing anything.

D 31. I will suppress my own feelings rather than hurt the feelings of others.

D 32. I go overboard for people and overextend myself to meet their needs, even at my own expense.

C 33. I do not show my feelings easily and have been told that I am hard to get to know.

C 34. I would rather deal with task problems than people problems.

C 35. I resolve conflicts based on what is fair rather than being concerned with feelings.

D 36. I find that people tend to take advantage of my good nature and kindheartedness.

C 37. I react with logic rather than emotions.

C 38. I make decisions based on logic rather than emotions.

C 39. I rarely seek advice from others before I make a decision.

D 40. I warm up to people easily and would not want to be thought of as cold and indifferent.

D 41. I prefer a work environment where there is no conflict and where people are appreciated and praised for what they contribute.

C 42. I am critical by nature and express my opinions freely.

D 43. I show my feelings easily.

D 44. I am accepting of others, not judgmental.

D 45. I expect those close to e to be sensitive to my feelings and emotional ups and downs and I feel hurt when they are not.

D 46. I resolve conflicts by asking people for their advice so I can gain reassurance and confidence in my decisions.

C 47. I stay calm, cool, and collected in situations where others are reacting emotionally.

D 48. I am good at resolving people problems.

C 49. I am a perfectionist and I like things done the right way- my way.

C 50. I am more task orientated than people oriented.

D 51. I am more concerned with making good decisions than right decisions.

C 52. I would rather work with someone who is reasonable and responsible than with someone who is thoughtful and kind.

D 53. I am a peacemaker, not an aggressor.

D 54. I tend to be overly sympathetic to the needs of people.

C 55. I am more interested in solving problems than dwelling on them.

C 56. I deal with people issues in a straightforward manner and call them like they are.

D 57. It is important to promote good feelings and harmony within my relationships.

C 58. I think that it is more important to be respected than to be liked.

D 59. I am good a creating a team atmosphere and getting others to rally around a common goal or cause.

C 60. I show how much I care for someone by being responsible and conscientious rather than being emotional and sentimental.

Total the letters circled:

A_____ B_____ C_____ D_____

A+C= red

B+C= yellow

A+D= orange

B+D= green

Your highest numerical score denotes your predisposition for that particular colour type. If your score is particularly high in your colour type, it indicates that your are strongly influenced by the characteristic and pattern of behavior associated with that type.

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I tried doing this test for the third time. The first time was when I was in the library flipping this book. The second time was when I was still the the library trying to figure this out again... and the third time was this morning.

My result turns out to be like this all the time:
A 10

B 10

C 10

D 10

Therefore,
A+C= 20

B+C= 20

A+D= 20

B+D= 20

So, tell me what is my personality?? =( Does it mean that I am VERY flexible? or it just shows that I don't have a strong personality? !@#$^&*sigh*

I wasted my time doing these quizzes. I hope you didn't...

2010-07-17T14:51:00.005+08:00

THE ASIAN DIET ( part I )

Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a merchant, and dinner like a pauper.
Walk 1000 steps after each meal.
Rub your stomach along the direction of the colon for five minutes after eating.
Fill your stomach half full with food, a quarter full with fluids (including soup) and leave the last quarter empty for processing.
Chew your food well.
Do not go hungry.
Exercise in the morning.
Eat small red beans (adzuki beans).
Eat more bitter food or herbs.

The best way to get into balance is to live a little more in balance today than yesterday, and not to grossly overcompensate for yesterday’s mistake.

Simple foods are better than those that are man made and engineered.Tositos are made with corn, corn oil and salt, but to add the ‘touch of Lime’, a dozen ingredients have to be used. Las potato chips have sliced potatoes, oil and salt. Baked Lays potato chips again require the addition of about a dozen more manufactured ingredients. Therefore, AVOID FAST FOOD, which is so processed, and unhealthy. So it is best to avoid it completely.

Brown rice is white rice with a thick coating around it (germ layer- which contains fibre and vitamins). However, these fibre is indigestible. Moreover, brown rice and white rice have about the same amount of calories, but brown rice has more fat. Our bodies will spend a lot of the time trying to digest the germ layer (largely unsuccessfully), resulting the lost of energy and slows down our metabolism.

The more processed the food is, the more difficult it is for us to un-process i.e. Rice/Wheat is grounded, mixed, heated, kneaded, leavened and baked to make bread. Therefore, if you are trying to lose weight, it is better to avoid bread and pasta as well.

We should be served with a large portion of vegetables, a small protein and a small starch. In fact, there are proteins and starch in vegetables as well.

Cooked vegetables are better than raw. There are people who argue that ‘Cooking a vegetable destroys all its nutrition’. However, this is not true if the vegetables are cooked correctly. Light steaming or sautéing a vegetable does destroys 10% of the nutrition but the remaining 90% is unlocked and available.

Everything cold and raw that you put into your stomach has to be heated and cooked internally by you. This takes your body time and energy, and slows down your metabolism.

There are people who eats big salad everyday and yet, not lose weight. Our salad can be bad for us especially with all the bacon, dressings, cheese, eggs, etc.. and even if the salad consists of just raw vegetables without dressings, it is also too difficult for us to digest. The cell walls of plants are thick and are well defended, so cooing is a form of pre-digestion, which unlocks the nutrients.

Another way to pre-digest food is with fermentation. Pickles are good to add to your diet but not all the time. Pickling preserves food by creating an acidic environment in which harmful bacteria cannot grow but helpful microbes can. These microbes break down food, creating natural pro-biotic, which also aids digestion.

Excessive meat intake can cause all sorts of health problems ranging from obesity to hypertention, heart diseases, leukemia, Alzhemer’s disease, etc..

Meat increases hormone levels, resulting in early puberty, higher risk of breast cancer, prostrate, and colorectal cancer, and sets the stage for worse experience at menopause.

Long term vegetarian tend to develop a condition called blood deficiency and they tend to become pale, emaciated, sickly, have thinner hair and brittle nails, and can be prone to anxiety and insomnia; they are also less resistant to diseases. Without sufficient blood, the menses can be affected and fertility impaired.

An animal must be killed the humane way- for if an animal is scared, it will release fear hormones and those hormones will be present in the meat which results in more fear hormone in our body.

Eating excessive amount of fish can give us too much mercury, which can cause neurological problems among other health issues.

Sushi in Japan is severed with warm rice, miso soup and hot tea and these additions help to warm up the raw fish in the stomach. The pickled ginger and wasabi are served with sushi because they are both antimicrobial and antibacterial, and not just added for taste.

Egg whites are not better than egg yolk. Neither egg yolks nor egg whites are good for us, so they should be taken in moderation and only eaten maybe once or twice per week.

Nuts are good but nut butters are not.

Beans are fabulous so you can have as many as you want, but don’t always eat the same ones.

Ideal rule for eating a balanced meal is that your stomach should be half full of food and a quarter full of fluids. Fluids include soups, but not cream based soup unless you are trying to gain weight.

Soups are a good way to lose weight as it fills up your stomach with easy to digest fluid.

Green leafy vegetables are best source of calcium.

Your first and most important fluid intake should be water and the next most important should be green tea. Coffee is a fine occasional drink.

Green tea is the best beverage in the world. It prevents heart disease, vascular disease, cancer, cavities, increase metabolism, decrease appetite, regulates blood sugar and blood pressure, lowers cholesterol, reduces pain, improves mood and may even prevent chromosomal damage in the eggs and sperm. The worst green tea s still better than the best coffee.

Candy is bad. Artificial sweeteners are much worse for us than sugar. Aspartame is what goes into Diet Coke® , Diet Pepsi® and just everything else that is sweet and diet. It is 180 times as sweet as sugar. The fact is that Aspartame has no calories just means that our body cannot break it down. Another sweetener, Equal®, also contains aspartame, plus additional ingredients distinguishing it from Nutrisweet®. This ingredient is phenylalanine, which can cause seizures at high doses.

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I have not finish reading this book- and it had been a very long time already. The rest of the books piled up beside me are waiting for their turn!! *shits* Then again, my table is in a mess.

*I had been eating breakfast every morning.

*However, I just can't wake up early enough (before the sun rises) to go out for a run.

*I had been trying to remember to rub my stomach after I finish eating- and I know I seemed like a pregnant lady at home. =.=

*I always fail to eat dinner like a pauper. In fact, I think I eat dinner like a Queen.

*I had been going out for a walk after dinner (about 20 min walk around the neighbourhood).

*I seldom have soup for dinner that's why I tend to over eat.

*and the amount I eat is so much lesser than a normal lady would- because of my small stomach... because I don't want to get fat... and because my metabolism rate is so much slower and I gain weight easily.. =(

*I had been trying to eat proper meals.

* I had been trying to take in whole grains again for my diet. At least I eat a little rice for dinner- I hate to eat rice..

*Yes, I eat lots of vegetables and small protein and starch.

* But I eat a lot of titbits and sweets. I will try not to eat sweet stuff from now. sobss

*I dislike drinking cold but when it come to bubble tea.. erm. I think its fine..=x

*I eat very slowly during meal time- putting down my utensils every time I chew on my food. It's good to eat slowly and I realised I'm always the last to finish eating when I'm at Baybe's place.

*Although I'm not a long term vegetarian, I think I have all the symptoms for Blood Deficiency...

*I love green tea. I love Starbucks Coffee too. =x

*I love nuts. A lot of nuts.

2010-07-17T00:13:00.002+08:00

disappointing.very disappointing.im upset but i will still put hope and faith in you, my friend.i don't know hows life for you now but i hope it's better over there.im not too sure how much you've said to set this up.yes, its over and there is nothing else i can do.its not that im not cunning.its because i treat everyone with a true heart.i don't fake if i don't like you.it will be darn obvious if i do.i try not to believe but recalling all that had happened,im just trying...very hard not to convince myself.had i not known you well enough or i don't even know you at all?close friends but i don't know her well.that's what i tell others when they ask me about her.im not angry,not at all.just disappointed if what i have heard are true.tell me,how to be cunning?!

2010-07-16T13:25:00.002+08:00

Especially for my ex-classmate: whyyoucare. =)

I know you love reading my blog, don't you? & your cliques too.

If you have nothing better to do, its okay to blog hop.
If you want to comment, its okay to comment.
But if you think by using your fake name for whatever reason,
it shows that you're just 'hum ji'.
(oops, I didn't mean to scold you but I think there's no other better word for me to use.. to describe you.)

Don't criticise others when you're no where better, not at all.
Do you know what IP address is for?
Do you know it's easy to track you down?
& Do you know you don't have to hide at all?

Everything between them ended so long ago and I'm his girlfriend now. I'm proud to say this. It doesn't concern you- both his past and present. I don't know why you still have friends to hang out with. Yes, I don't deny that you care for your close friends and you treat them well... but what about the rest?

You gossip and try to influence your cliques with those rubbish you made up, adding so much spices to make someone sound horrible. In fact, it's scary to know all these.

I'm not angry with you nor the rest of your cliques. I'm not even angry with what you said in YQ's blog. I am just very very... disappointed in you. It's really time to grow, time to... act and think maturely. *sigh*

P.S. if you will feel happier to scold us in his chat box, you can go ahead. We will just ignore you. If this could really make you happy, we all will just shut up- you can say all you want.

Anger and jealousy won't make you happy. =(

2010-07-11T22:19:00.002+08:00

I'm blogging now even though there is nothing in my head now and I don't have the urge to blog... but I'm blogging now cos' my number 1 fan is waiting to see my new post. hahax!!

I'm so in love with the nothing-to-do days. I'm so in love with reading books at home, going to the library. I'm so in love with grocery shopping. I'm so in love with exercising. I'm so in love with spending quality time with Baybe. I'm so in love with the healthy diet nowadays. I'm so in love with documentaries. I'M JUST SO IN LOVE WITH A LOT OF THINGS RIGHT NOW.

Running, reading, cooking is what I do so often nowadays. Picnic, grocery shopping, flying kite is what I always wanted to do. I no longer go to the gym because it builds up my muscles and make me gain weight. I don't go for a swim that often anymore because it cost $2 to enter the pool. I need to spend more wisely.

I'm reading a book ' The Asian Diet'. Interesting. I shall blog about it soon. =) The next book will either be 'Being Happy' by Andrew Matthews or 'Organising From The Right Side Of The Brain' by Lee Silber. I hope that this book will be of great help cos' I'm always so messy- not my look, but my room!!!

2 in 1

2010-07-07T07:30:00.003+08:00

My Mom had always been very supportive i.e. when I was searching for scotch tape so that I can send something over to Baybe's place, she went to find one for me and even cut out the length for me... the day after I left my job, she brought out all the make up in her room and left it in the living room so that I can use some of them... When I woke up in the early morning to cook for Baybe, she guided me and helped me get the container to contain the rice. =)

Thank you, Mummy.

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Know what? I think my Baybe is great!! =)

Ithiel Liang...

Cooks
Does housework (although a lil pampered at home.. =x)
Wash my clothes (when I forgotten to bring my clothes back. =x)
Packs my bed
Patience
Friendly
Good tempered
Helpful
Smoothers me
Very accommodating ( not all the time eh?)
Mature
Understanding

although he...

loves to procrastinate
is late sometimes
eats with more than 3 fingers on each hand (I think I'm becoming more like him!!!!)
press my fats all the time and tell me 'Baebe, you're not fat at all'. (so how the hell did he manage to press my fats?!?!)
is quite dirty- sit on bed without bathing. =x

Let's see... my negative side is much more than his. LOL.

Super whiny (when he is around.)
Short tempered
Impatience
Can't cook (first time trying how to cook fried rice this morning when I don't even know how to cook plain rice. LOL!)
Eats junk food
Dislike proper meals
Very messy!! (room is in great mess. World War 3 just ended...)
Always complaining fat
Has got very very sweet tooth
Noisy
Spend without control
Very random...

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theloveofmylife

2010-07-06T23:05:00.004+08:00

Baybe's facebook was still logged in when he left and Ken talked to him... and he thought I was Baybe's friend.

11:08pmguanster

ah liang.

where r u..nt in msn ar

11:15pmMe

ah liang forgot to log out.. lols

he is on his way home luhs

11:15pmguanster

lol!

okie! tell him to msn me when he get back..LOL!

11:16pmMe

ok. sure. btw im his friend. nice to know you

i v chio one. and v inteligent..

if you need gf can consider me.

11:17pmguanster

lol! alright.

thanks ar...LOL

11:18pmMe

ur welcome. winks

I felt disguisted after saying this to Ken but it really made me laugh like mad woman in front of the computer. I can't believe what I said to him and if anyone were to ask me if I was the one who typed this, I think I will not admit. (if I did not blog about this.) LOL!!

In the end, Ken knew it was me.. cos' I'm the only one who talk so much nonsense. =(

What makes me laugh is that I never knew he was THIS polite. wahahax!!
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Devin
.One of my top 5 favourites.

Devin looked very stern!!
Devin: Principal for (SOC) School of Cats. =x

A trip to Chinatown area. My love and me.

I didn't cry all these while because I knew I had you- both physically and mentally.
Thank you for always being here with me. I'm really very grateful to have you (and this is the dunno-how-many-times I had been telling myself this)... it serves as an reminder not to take advantage of you; and to love you like how you love me. =)

all these keep me going...

2010-07-04T12:22:00.004+08:00

This is our love. something very special to me.

We went on a day trip to Malaysia yesterday with his siblings and friends.. Initially was to go go-carting but in the end, we lost out way and it was raining so we ended up eating dinner and going for an hour foot reflexology. My stomach is not well due to improper meals, I drank too little water and the muscles beside my shin are too stiff due to long hours of standing and walking... This shows that I have a problematic body. =x

I'm jobless now. My probation's over and my company thinks that I should leave. I thought so too. I've been thinking of leaving after the first month working there. I thought I should give myself more time to adapt to the working life there but I just can't. I asked myself umpteen times why am I here and why I think I'm not suitable for this job.. I just don't know why. When I asked my manager why.. she said she don't know either.. =.= They just can't feel me working there. Perhaps because I don't play facebook games with them or maybe because I seldom sit down and have meals together with them. (okay, they seriously eat a lot. 10am plus breakfast, 1pm lunch.) Another very lame reason they gave me was because I'm attached now and I'm not committed. =.= First, I just got attached recently. Second, since when I'm not committed? If I had to work, I will work. I had done so much...

So in conclusion, my superior didn't see the things that I've done.

A good chance to leave since they suggested, so I packed my stuff and left. Really happy though and many things came into my mind once I stepped out of the office- what I want to achieve for the 'jobless period'.

I want to do a lot of things, go to a lot of places. Spend quality time with my Baybe since I didn't really have the chance to.

I want to go Sentosa and Botanical Gardens to walk around and take pictures with Baybe.
I want to go to Singapore Garden Festival with Baybe.
I want to go to East Coast Park to cycle and chill out with Baybe.
I want to make snowskin mooncake with Baybe.
I want to chill out at Starbucks with Baybe.
I want to spend my time in the library to read more about things that I'm interested in.
I want to exercise with Baybe.
I want to go picnic with Baybe.
I want to cook meals together with Baybe.
I want to visit my niece and nephews.
I want to start my practical driving lessons...

...& many many more... ... ...

Mom's very supportive. She tried to console me (but I was really fine). =x She even bring out all the make ups in her room just in case I need to use them...

Baybe tried to talk to me and make me feel better. LOL!!

Baybe's Mom was also very supportive. She talked to me and shared her experiences with me too. =)

Dad didn't asked much but when I said I wanted to eat durians, he bought it the next day for me. He bought lychees too because he knew I like them. He's gonna make rojak later cos' he knew I love to eat his rojak. =)

Don't worry, I'm really fine. I didn't cry because I wasn't upset that I left the company. In fact, I'm happy. The only thing that made cry is because I'm really touched by my parents and Baybe. =)

I will try to have proper meals and my breakfast from now will be Kellogs k special ( currenly is Vanilla Almond) with Nutrisoy High Calcium No Sugar Omega. Healthy eh? hahaha!! Plus it's delicious and filling!!

Thanks to Baybe, I'm in love with Laneige products!!! I'm broke... =(

Enjoying the 'nothing-to-do' days!! =)

2010-06-21T22:19:00.002+08:00

I know, someone from there's gonna read my blog. and yes, I'm writing this just to let you guys know that I'm aware and I'm not as oblivious as you guys think I am.

I realised my ex-classmate just deleted me from facebook. I was quite surprised initially then, I realised that I shouldn't be. Not that I want to criticize, but I think that you did not grow (mentally) ever since the day I knew you. It's been 3 years.. and a lot of conflicts in class are created due to these kind of people.

What do you love to do?? From what I see, you love to make a mountain out of a molehill, loves gossiping and to make things sound nice, you love to make things sound more complicated... but to make things more direct, I should say.. you love to cook up stories and make things complicated and chaotic. You love shows, don't you? Life would be bored without people like me eh?? and yes, life would be bored too without people like you. :)

I know the reason for deleting me as a friend- cos' I'm attached to someone you dislike. I don't know what's this gonna do with me... and worse, this doesn't involve you, not a single bit. I don't really care though cos' if by doing this makes you feel better, by all means.

In conclusion, I just want to tell you that by doing this does not benefit you cos' you're just trying to limit the circle of friends you have. By doing this does not show that you are mature... in fact, very immature. Your EQ is way below a 18 year old. and you are just trying to show that you didn't even try to be gracious at all.

I don't dislike you even after all these I have said. I just want to let you know, when its time to let go, you should let go. Besides, it had been a year or two now. Then again, I pity you... for not even trying to be mature.

oh yes, appreciate what you have. Reflect on what others had done for you every night just before you go to sleep. and love the ones around you with your true heart. You will be happier this way.

~~Its no surprise if you are angry after reading all these.~~
be gracious & reflect on what I have said. Change, if there is a need to.
It's high time to grow. :)

Even the slightest thing we do together like,
choosing shoes together makes me really happy. =)

2010-06-20T22:09:00.002+08:00

!BUSY WEEKEND!
busy spending quality time with Baybe

Yes, I enjoyed myself even though its so damn tiring. =x Imagine I woke up at 2pm plus today.. I had never... never ever woke up this late before no matter how late I slept...

Saturday

woke up at 5am and left house at 5.40am
reached Baybe's place at 7.15am
went running at 8am
went grocery shopping
reached home at 9.45am
ate breakfast, watch tv
do gardening
went out to buy lunch
shopped randomly for awhile
went back for lunch
bathed and slept for 2 hours
had dinner- picnic @ his rooftop =x
went out to meet kor kor @ st. james

Sunday

midnight 'picnic' @ sentosa. LOL!!
reached home at 5am.
Slept till 2pm plus
Baybe called to ask me get prepared (super rush!!)
ate lunch near my place with Baybe, kor kor and his gf
went to gym
went to swim
ate dinner
blogging now...

Eventful weekend. Its tiring.. but I enjoyed. Baybe gave me a bouquet of Gebera ( my favourite flowers!!), Jie jie lend me her shoes and tee shirt, Kor kor took care of me and Mei mei waves and smile cheerfully when she sees me. At least I don't feel as pressured as before..

Im glad to know that your family likes me. & I like them too. =)

I will do my best =D

2010-06-15T17:55:00.002+08:00

BAYBE IS BACK FROM HONG KONG!!
I miss him so a lot!!!

yes, I truly miss him and not the pressies he'd gotten for me

Now I know what's so great about love
There is no need to see each other everyday
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I smile at those messages even though it's not funny
I smile to myself everyday on my way home
because I'm thinking of him
We have endless things to talk about everyday
Even when we have nothing to say through the web cam,
we smile at each other like idiots
I yearn to see you the next time round,
thinking of what we can do together..
Thinking of how to spend quality time together.

If I can't hear your heartbeat,
it means that you're too far away.

2010-06-13T20:18:00.002+08:00

This is the one I made for myself.
Not as nice as the one I made for Baybe. =(

I miss you!!! Can't wait for you to come back to chat with me for hours through the phone!! Enjoy your days there cos' when you come back, I'm gonna torture you. LOL. But I know even if I say how bad life would be here when you come back, you will still want to come back as soon as possible eh? Wwahahax!!!

I'm confident,
very confident. =D

2010-06-12T22:05:00.002+08:00

AWwww!! I'm still sick. =(
~~i think i deserve it~~

1. Haven't been getting enough rest,
2. Haven't been eating regular meals for some time already,
3. Had been eating junk food,
4. Was in the rain while at work,
5. ... and then, in and out of hotels
... and many more that I don't wanna mention cos' I'm guilty listing all of them out. =x

On Thursday, I was having sore throat but it wasn't that bad.. Didn't really bother me though. At night when I reached home, I was having fever...

Friday... was down with slight flu and cough but I still went to work cos' my fever subsided...

Today, I thought I felt better when I woke up in the morning so I went to gym. I couldn't run even when I've got enough sleep. Perhaps, something is wrong with my body condition. =( Shits! what should I do man??

I went to town with Mom in the evening to have dinner. On the way to town, I was feeling sick already. My fever and flu came back. My back ached, my head's throbbing in pain. =( Then I went to buy Panadol cold relief. Dinner was... Korean's stonepot mixed rice and kimchi soup (when Im having sore throat!!)

When we went back to Jurong point, I bought bubble tea to drink- Peppermint oreo. (Totally forgotten that I was sick.) LOL! I bought EBENE bio-ray knee guard which cost me $55. I'm going bankrupt!! An hour ago, I was still chewing on marshmallows!! LOL! So now you know why I say I deserve it eh? =x I KEEP SNEEZING AND MY THROAT HURTS!!! URGH!!

My Baybe's out of town but I can feel his presence around me. Baybe, I can't wait for next Saturday!! wahahax!! I miss you and do come back safe.

when 2 becomes 1

2010-06-09T21:45:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY, MISS KOH!!

I reared 8 swordtail fishes. 3 passed away. It frustrates me so much because whenever I buy new fishes, they die.
I am really sick of my life now. I stress over what to do... every weekday.!@#$%^&
'Belle of the boulevard' never fail to make me feel upset.. although I don't cry now when I hear this song but my heart still aches... then, anger slowly fills my heart. I then realized that everything officially ended half a year ago. But when I think of him, everything just fades away. =)
I never fail to stare into space and smile to myself (like an idiot) on my way home everyday because I'm thinking of someone.
He told me he would want me to die first because he will be there till my last breath. Then, he would build something out of my name. I'm so touched. & I guess you didn't know I cried eh? The thought of it makes me happy (really very very happy) even if it might just be an empty promise..
I want a Onitsuka tiger shoe with Baybe- I targeted one for you and me already. =)
I want Kate Spade bag.
I want Eclat d'arpege by Lanvin (Perfume)!!!
My bag contains: 2 phones, ear piece, wallet, card holder, scheduler, camera, sunblock lotion, sun glasses.. and the latest item you can find now is Fancy Feast canned food for cats. LOL!! So that I can feed stray cats when I see them. =)

Baybe, I guess I know the main reason behind all the excuses I've made so that you need not send me home. Besides 1.saving your time and money to travel back and forth and 2.I need not worry too much about you traveling home on your own compared to sending me back first and go back yourself... Then, I realised that the main reason is... because I love you and I want you to have the best of everything. I don't want to see you suffer. I don't want you to sacrifice so much for me.

yes, it's very sweet to wake up in the early morning to cook me a meal and bring it to my work place. yes, I like that a lot. but Baybe, do you know I feel so guilty to make you wake up so early in the morning? & don't clean my shoes for me cos' I don't treat you like a slave or maid. yes, you gonna do that in future.. lots of chance for you to... but not now okay?

Its all because you're my precious.

2010-05-28T23:35:00.002+08:00

Baybe, I'm not your Baby.
In fact, I'm your Baebe. =)

People are starring at me. and Baybe loves it.. ~~He's sick, I guess. LOL!!~~
It's super humid nowadays!!!
I've got the urge to rear fishes again but I know I'm won't commit.
My body starts to ache again from all the exercising..
My sensitive teeth is back again. I'm gonna see a dentist tomorrow.
I had to bring my work back home to do.. Sadss =(
Its a shame to sit beside a 30 year old acting like a 3 year old kid...
My temper is getting worse each day. =(
So what if you have a back up with you? F you, seriously.
I'm just so sick of my weekday life.
Those messages are irritating me. Why would someone text me ' what are you doing?' when I just logged off from msn? =.=
Go ahead and enjoy. No one would ever stop you from drinking because she will drink with you. You both are too compatible. Enjoy your life, get out from mine.
If reading my 'crappy' blog entertains you, just go eat shit like how horses eat grass.

I love you drying my hair for me.
I love it when you stroke my hair.
I love it when you hold my hands.
I love it when you take time to exercise with me.
But I hate it when you say 'Sorry'
cos my heart aches to hear that word from you.

Seeing me happy makes you happy.
So what if I tell you..
being with you makes me happy?

I will hold you and love you the best that I can

2010-05-23T22:14:00.002+08:00

Don't search for someone who will make your heart whole.Instead be with someone who will never let you feel broken by all means.

A guy can make you think he loves you, but he doesn't.
A girl can make you think she doesn't love you, but she really does.

Sometimes, you get stare blankly at the ceiling like you just completely lost your mind all because YOU MISS SOMEONE ♥

Life is like a multiple choice question sometimes the choices confuses you, not the question itself :(

You should never assume that somebody loves you by only seeing their sweetness cos the fact is that some are just BIG TIME flirts :)

Don't be sad cos its over. Just be happy cos it happened.

When the heart is willing to love it will find a thousand ways. But when a heart is unwilling, it will find a thousand stupid excuses :x

"It's not being in love that makes me happy.
It's being in love with you that makes me happy." ♥ :)

No one can ever fill your space in my heart, because this heart only beats for you.

Do you know that the worst way to miss someone? Its when you're just right beside me, yet i know I can never have you :D

When I'm with you everything feels so right :)

Forget the past that made you cry & focus on your present that completes your life..

I would never let go if i can still hold on and i would never hold back once I've decided to let go.

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It's just so meaningful.. Exactly how I felt all these while.

& I shall let you know..
whenever you stare into my eyes,
my doubts fades away.

2010-05-21T23:33:00.002+08:00

It's late but I'm still gonna blog. There are a thousand and one things reeling in my head right now and I don't know which one to start with... =(

1. My appointment at Tan Tock Seng Hospital is at 8.30am tomorrow and I'm not going. The word 'blood test' is scaring me!!!

2. I shall have a good rest tonight to charge myself for gym, swim and cycle (with my parents@ EastCoastPark tomorrow!!)

3. I've been running, gym-ing and swimming recently. I know I have been exercising excessively and those who loves and cares for me have been persuading me not to- cos' my joints aren't doing well.. But if one day I stop exercising totally, please visit me cos' I might have been too jaded to live.

4. I love bubble tea, ice creams, chocolates, fruits, veges, fish and nuts. I just can't live without them!!

5. I hate the tension and I think I'm suffocating... I want to run, as fast as I can.

6. I couldn't sleep well and I'm in need of the Deep Sleep Spray again...

7. I'm depressed. Why do I have to tear behind my shades?

8. I'm happy for you and I've read your blog- Leslie. I'll be glad to see you happy. Pour all your love on her and find back the things you've lost by me/ by being with me. Don't tell me how upset you are because I only want to hear good things from you.

Thanks for appreciating the things I bake for you all the time- even though it may not be as delicious as before.. At least I tried my best to make you happy the very last time you came back. & I didn't regret this time round...

9. Hubby Ang, you wanted me to blog about you right? hahax. Without you mentioning, I had already intended to blog about you. =) Thanks for running with me all the time no matter how late it is and also, ~~thanks for encouraging me to go home when I starts to complain that I'm tired.~~ Erm.. What else??... why you don't want to swim with me? stress uh?? LOL!! I will swim super duper slow just for you okay?? hahax!!!

10. I'm swimming faster and faster each time I swim. & each time I swim, I can feel my arms swell. & each time it swells, I know my arms are becoming bigger- like POPEYE (the sailor man)..

11. Hello boy, I know you're stalking me again... LOL!! Just wanna tell you that I really appreciate your companionship. I smile when I see you and my doubts fade away. Thanks for showing me care and concern plus a little bit of... love? =x

12. ...and Mummy, I know you are reading my blog again. I just want to tell you that I'm fine, don't worry about me. Don't dislike him because of me. I had let go and I'm happy now... as long as I have you, Dad, Didi and Devin, everything would just be fine. =)

...and all the questions I've been asking in my head
Like are you the one should I really trust
Crystal clear it becomes when I'm kissing you...