Sunday, December 19, 2010 @ 6:52 PM
In two day's time, it's Mom's Birthday and I AM SUPER DUPER BROKE NOW!! :(
... Part of my money went to facials, driving lessons, driving test, transportation and seriously, I don't know where the rest of my money went to. I KNOW, I CAN'T MANAGE MONEY even though I can manage people much more better... disappointing.
Everyweek, my colleagues ask me where do I go on weekends. I would always say the same thing.. ' I hate weekends cos' it's super crowded and I don't know what to eat... I feel lazy as well.' -no life-
I want to buy a lot of things. I want a pair of polarized sunglasses. I want a new swimsuit. I need a casual bag. I want a swatch watch (even though I don't like to wear watches in the past). I need a pair of sports shoe. I need a lot of sunblock lotion (haha!).
Apart from all those mentioned, I wish... my boss will be able to give me a vehicle as soon as possible... and this is my Christmas wish. HAHAHA!!!
Saturday, December 11, 2010 @ 12:02 PM
I passed my driving the second time. I got 58 points deducted the first time I failed. Hahaha! I was very nervous and I hit curb thrice. Dumb.. I know. Someone used to tell me, 'I don't know how would anyone hit the curb. It's not easy to hit the curb'.. And.. I said 'ya, stupid or what'. LOL. Then, I'm the stupid one.
In fact, I felt weird that morning.. I knew I was going to fail. I failed and was sad. I told myself, I'm not going to fail the next time. I am so determined to pass.
One week before the second TP test, I went for 3 sessions of revision... My TP tester was fierce. He scolded me.. but he was lenient.
When I passed, I wasn't elated. In fact, I was just glad that I need not spend so much for driving. I've spent 1.6k on driving in total.. Including enrollment fee for joining the school, drop out from school and enrollment for private school.
I know I should feel really happy. I didn't. Perhaps I had never really fail in anything I do. I get what I want. I do what I want. And after I passed, I knew I deserve it.
Having insomnia, I laid in bed a few hours thinking... If.. I'm someone else, I would think that Daphne is a scary person. Someone not easily satisfied. Someone who knows what she wants and she gets it.
And I know myself well enough. I can be really stubborn. and I began to be afraid of this Daphne... :(
