Sunday, December 19, 2010 @ 6:52 PM
In two day's time, it's Mom's Birthday and I AM SUPER DUPER BROKE NOW!! :(
... Part of my money went to facials, driving lessons, driving test, transportation and seriously, I don't know where the rest of my money went to. I KNOW, I CAN'T MANAGE MONEY even though I can manage people much more better... disappointing.
Everyweek, my colleagues ask me where do I go on weekends. I would always say the same thing.. ' I hate weekends cos' it's super crowded and I don't know what to eat... I feel lazy as well.' -no life-
I want to buy a lot of things. I want a pair of polarized sunglasses. I want a new swimsuit. I need a casual bag. I want a swatch watch (even though I don't like to wear watches in the past). I need a pair of sports shoe. I need a lot of sunblock lotion (haha!).
Apart from all those mentioned, I wish... my boss will be able to give me a vehicle as soon as possible... and this is my Christmas wish. HAHAHA!!!
Saturday, December 11, 2010 @ 12:02 PM
I passed my driving the second time. I got 58 points deducted the first time I failed. Hahaha! I was very nervous and I hit curb thrice. Dumb.. I know. Someone used to tell me, 'I don't know how would anyone hit the curb. It's not easy to hit the curb'.. And.. I said 'ya, stupid or what'. LOL. Then, I'm the stupid one.
In fact, I felt weird that morning.. I knew I was going to fail. I failed and was sad. I told myself, I'm not going to fail the next time. I am so determined to pass.
One week before the second TP test, I went for 3 sessions of revision... My TP tester was fierce. He scolded me.. but he was lenient.
When I passed, I wasn't elated. In fact, I was just glad that I need not spend so much for driving. I've spent 1.6k on driving in total.. Including enrollment fee for joining the school, drop out from school and enrollment for private school.
I know I should feel really happy. I didn't. Perhaps I had never really fail in anything I do. I get what I want. I do what I want. And after I passed, I knew I deserve it.
Having insomnia, I laid in bed a few hours thinking... If.. I'm someone else, I would think that Daphne is a scary person. Someone not easily satisfied. Someone who knows what she wants and she gets it.
And I know myself well enough. I can be really stubborn. and I began to be afraid of this Daphne... :(
Tuesday, November 16, 2010 @ 9:10 PM
I'm physically and mentally exhausted. Physically cos' I've been running around in parks to do up a plan view of each section in detail... and mentally cos' the Nparks meeting scared the hell out of me. I'm glad that West Coast Park is doing fine.. and it all started after I came in. hahahahax!!
I think I'm just too busy at work that I sometimes get brain dead- I can't even remember my worker's name when I just mentioned his name over and over again in the morning. =.= I can't remember that I was told that the meeting was postpone. When I recalled, I thought it was last night's dream. ( But it wasn't a dream!!.)
Nowadays I work at 7am and end at 4pm plus. If I start at 9am, I go home at 5pm. Workers are trying to snake.. I can't do anything much but to go super early to make sure they start on time. I don't mind. In fact, time passes much faster. :)
Sunday, October 31, 2010 @ 9:56 AM
I'm blogging now cos' I think I' too too bored. I've gotten used to working life- I sleep early and wake up early.. and I wake up exactly after 9 hours. :)
Even so, I'm still feeling tired. I cycle everyday except Sundays and my thighs are aching since 1st day at work. hahahax!
My parents went for a short holiday, leaving Devin and I at home. I feel very very bored on a Sunday when I want to go out but dunno where to go and my legs are aching that makes me feel like resting. *sadd* Its my job now to cook my own meal- its okay, I don't eat a lot.. Had to feed Devin, clean his litter, wash my own clothes, hang up my own clothes, sweep the floor, pack my room... I watch TV alone, no one to listen to me whine... I feel lonely. :(
I've got a meeting with Nparks tomorrow and I dread cos' they can only see the bad things and they never.. never mention anything good. We don't feel appreciated. :(
I've been working with Nparks and I always feel that their handshake are sooo.... soft. I didn't put in that much strength but I still can feel/hear a 'crack' sound on that little finger. *sigh*
I want to study Part-time. and Im still looking up on what to study.
Working outdoor makes my face look horrible. I'm going for facial.. in preparation for Chinese New Year :(
I bought ready-to-plant wheat grass for Devin and the media stinks!! Smells like zebra's shit and it makes me feel like I'm in Zoo. :(
Thursday, October 28, 2010 @ 8:32 PM
I was slacking for 3.5 months and I can say that I seriously wasn't interested in looking for jobs at all. and right now, I'm back to working life. No office hours and although I don't have a office over at West Coast right now, I really love the job. Its tiring but time passes really fast. Sometimes I start work at 9 plus and I go home around 4pm plus 5pm, provided I've got nothing else to do. :)
I'm paid to manage, coordinate with Nparks and exercise- cycle around the park and walk if I want to. How good is that? I always wanted to get paid to exercise. :) Once my office is up, I can run in the morning!! :)
A lot happened in this 6 weeks from the last time I blogged.
I worked.
My 21st Birthday was fabulous.
My birthday present from my parents was an iphone.
My birthday present from friends was an Agnes B ear stud and a crystal keychain. :)
I went for Holiday at Redang.
My camera spoilt at Redang and I got a newer set of camera by Olympus.
I failed my driving test- I got 58 demerit points (believe or not? LOL!)
Devin was sick.
I started working.
and my parents were really supportive.
Baybe as well..he cooked lunch for me and bring over to West Coast.
I mopped the floor for the first time in dunno-how-many- hundred-months.
Weekends are always... feeling down and lazy.
I finally got used to my heavier-than-usual boots.
I think my make up foundation can rot at home cos' I don't use it when I go to work.
Thinking of buying new year clothes,
thinking of shopping during weekend makes me feel so so sick. :(
My 'enough rest' means 9 hours of sleep.
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Some people can't open up to themselves, how could they even open up to others?
If you can betray the one you love, you can do the same to others as well.
I don't need a best friend cos' not everyone can be trusted and some, just make you as an object to compare with.
Some people whom you think are friends when they think you're trash.
I really need to cool down cos' I've finally realized that my working pace is really too fast.
Resolving misunderstandings are... difficult.
Friday, September 17, 2010 @ 11:41 AM
I'd been eating mooncakes and I love it!!
- Raffles Hotel
- GoodWood Park Hotel
- Tong Le
- Carlton Hotel
- Ritz Carlton Hotel
- Classic Teochew baked mooncake
...and more to come!!
I think I ate to much mooncakes, my stomach isn't feeling well. Or I should say, ever since I started working in April, my stomach is always bloated... Nah, I think I've gotten used to it. :( Medications like ENO doesn't work for me already.
I'm not feeling well now and Devin follows me around in the house as though he wants to take care of me. I'm blogging and he's lying on my table to accompany me. So sweet right? I tried to have more rest but I can't seem to fall asleep. Irritating. :( Hopefully I feel better later cos' I want to go out!!!
blackberry phone? iphone? same price :(
Sunday, September 12, 2010 @ 12:55 AM
Yes,
My cravings for mooncakes are legendary :)
since more than 6 months ago
I cleared Raffles Hotel mooncakes. Next, would be Shangri-la Hotel mooncakes. Then, Teochew yam mooncakes. :) I only eat small snowskin mooncakes that cost more than $45 for 8 pieces. Those cheapo ones really make me fat and waste my stomach storage space. :x hahahax!!
I want lanterns. I'm very delighted to know that mid-autumn festival is round the corner. :) Honestly, I like mid-autumn festival more than Chinese New Year. I dread Chinese New Year as I grow older. So sick of it. :(
Monday, September 6, 2010 @ 12:07 AM
I'M BACK TO BLOG!!! :)
My driving test is about a month from now. I am supposed to have lesson today and Wednesday but I called to cancel them. Why? Cos' I don't feel like driving. Everytime I go for lesson, my instructor would scold me- say I'm slow, no common sense, etc... After each lesson, I feel like a complete idiot. Its so damn demoralizing and it makes me feel that I pay him to scold me. Sometimes, he would make use of the time to ask me to send him to run some errands like driving him to woodlands to change his air-con battery, pump petrol, send out invitations for his son's wedding, buy incense papers and offerings for the ghost festival... I wonder if I pay him to do all these. !@#$%^&
For the past few days, I had been working in the IT show. The pay is low but what matters most is that we are able to kill time and make more friends. And yes, we did. My very first customer was a boss and he bought 7 computers straight. I'm just too lucky!!! Day one, I sold 10 products. My luck ran out or what, I sold only 1 on the second day. Bloody china girl snatched 3 of my customers. Its okay. It proves that she is better than me. Third day, I sold 5. The last sales was at 6.30pm and I started to slack since then. 5 is more than enough. LOL!! I didn't work on the fourth day because I've always dislike working in IT shows and I decided not to go. :x
The food for IT show was... yucks!!! Seriously. We are given only one meal and the food was like... OMG! I can cook even nicer. The pay and commission is low... that's why we work harder than other promoters from other companies. Then, it's so demoralizing to see them eat good food like fried rice or bento set. :( Nah. I just tell myself, its an experience.
I bought food for Baybe today. My very first time making sushi. The very first time I learn how to cook rice. LOL!!! I'm glad he likes it.
I left city hall at about 11.30pm and reached home at 2am the day before. Due to the upgrading of MRT track between Jurong East and Clementi, it took me 2.5 hours to reach home. I tried to to be patient... I was late for work as well. I boarded the train at Pioneer and it terminates at Lakeside. Then I have to wait for about 6 minutes for the next train that goes to Jurong East cos' only one track is operating. Then from Jurong East, there are shuttle bus to bring us to Clementi. Then, I have to walk to MRT station to continue my journey. Freaking time consuming!!! At night, because of this changing of bus and train, I reached Pioneer at 1am plus. I had to walk all the way home... ... ... I think SMRT should pay me for all the time wasted.
I had cravings for a lot of things recently. I want to eat Nasi Lemak, MacDonalds' spicy chicken nuggets, Lei Cha, Lor Mee, Mooncakes, Spicy Buffalo Wings, Apple Strudel, etc... Then, I want to learn to cook Aglio Olio someday. I want to make oreo cheesecake again. I want to go to Zoo again. I want to go to ikea again. I want to go to a lot of places. And, I can't wait to go to Redang to snorkel. :)
I opened my wardrobe and I realised that my Hua Hng long sleeve shirt is still hanging there... for more than half a year already. I thought it's supposed to be on the floor? Just then, I realised people in HH have Facebook as well!!! I wonder why they have facebook for... 2 possibilities. One is to stalk Ken Ng and see what is he so unhappy about the food there. Second, is to stalk their Big Missy to see what is she doing during work... I suppose :x
I have a great pet- Devin. In fact, he's quite bad tempered. He hates guy and he hates people to carry him around (unlike other cats)... He likes it when I clean his face with a wet toothbrush and whenever I bath a little longer, he would ask me to open the washroom door to look at me. I never understood what he tried to say but he looks so cute when he purrs at me. He seems to know it when I'm about to reach home. Whenever he greets me at the door, my mood brightens. He looked older, that's of course. He'd been here for 5 years already.. and I hope he can be like that forever... :(
smile
Thursday, July 22, 2010 @ 11:17 AM
I am just very pissed with someone and I know this is the maximum I can tolerate. It's been a long time and I always tell myself to forgive her. I always keep it to myself because I know everything will be fine in the end. Many times, it just lead to disappointment, seriously.
Most of the time, I will be the one planning the venue and time to meet and there's this many many times where I get disappointed but I just kept quiet. On rare occasions when I ask for suggestions, some would give and I just go along. In the end, that someone would back out last minute i.e. 'I not sure lei.. Not very accessible...' sounds familiar? and all the time, it takes her zillion years to reply messages or she don't reply at all.
Everytime I try to plan something, a part of me would regret... a part of me would say ' you're just wasting your time doing all these..' Seriously, I don't feel appreciated. It's hard to meet up when everyone is so busy and when FINALLY... everyone is free, someone would just back out. her boyfriend, her dog, her family.... What about us? In her eyes, are we nothing?
Why Don had to leave? I think you're responsible for this question too. I won't say too much on this though cos' it doesn't really concern me. I don't know how much you've said behind my back but do you know that colleagues can never be friends? How did Kevin know so much about me when i didn't even tell him a single shit about my personal life?
Sometimes when you lie, be careful.. because when people starts to talk about it, everything's exposed. I don't know if it's true, some other says that you're a hypocrite and I'm not as cunning as you. *I never knew you were but I'm glad that I'm not*
There's hell lot more but I shall stop here. I am very very disappointed.
Sadly, I have reached my limit.
Monday, July 19, 2010 @ 11:56 PM
.Baybe.
Happy Monthiversary!!
...once again...
Thank you for being here.. It's indeed my luck to have you and to be with you. For the past 3 years, I haven't been noticing you at all, to be honest. We both were too busy with our own lives and I can seriously count the number of times you hang out with us.
Now, I get to know you even better and yes, you're a great guy. The greatest I've ever met. Now I know why you always can't answer my questions immediately.. You can't seem to hear well because of that stupid chocolate chip in your ear. =x
I know I've influenced you in many ways i.e. bath immediately when you get home, go running and eat healthy (although I eat a lot of junk food. LOL.) Influence me by helping me to keep my room neat uh. wahahax!!
I enjoyed my day today although it seemed like any other days to me. I've been really happy for the past 3 weeks. It's a special day today but everyday seemed special to me. =D
'olivia'
